Motivation!

Bodie State Park, CA

Motivation

mo·ti·va·tion

/ˌmōdəˈvāSH(ə)n/

noun

1. the reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way.

   "escape can be a strong motivation for travel”

   • the general desire or willingness of someone to do something.

What motivates us? Why do we do the things we do? Everyone will have a different answer. That answer will most probably have a common thread. That thread is that we were trying to fulfill a want or need. This brings me to my photography. Why do I feel motivated to go out and make images? Why did I make the image above?

Some motivations are easy to explain. Why did I make a sandwich? Because I was hungry. Other motivations are a bit harder to explain. When someone asks me what is the motivation behind my images, I have a hard time putting it into words. One word that comes to mind is passion. I have a passion for photography. I can’t explain why, it just is. When I met my Wife, I looked into her eyes and I knew. It wasn’t rational, but I knew! This would be the woman I would spend the rest of my life with. I have the same passion for my photography. When I picked up a camera, I just knew. It wasn’t the camera or the film, it was the idea of making an image. Capturing something. The magic of stealing a moment in time and holding it in my hand. It was magical. The older I get the more magical it is. I can look back at these moments and relive them over and over. I can laugh with friends that are long gone. I can cry remembering moments with loved ones that I can no longer hug. I can see the younger me enjoying a moment, over and over again. Without those images there are still the memories, but not as strong. As I get older the memories fade, but I can still hold the images.

So, from now on, when someone asks me what motivates me to make images, I will show them! If i’m fortunate, they will see what I saw, feel the emotion, see the beauty and at the same time, see me!

In that moment in time I captured the image, at the top of this page because it sang to me. Something about the cracked windshield, broken wiper and the buildings seen beyond. They sang a song of the past, a place that once had life but left memories behind. Memories for me to capture to create even more memories. I hope I never lose this passion and I hope to share more of it with you!

Until Tomorrow,

John

My Path Back to Film Photography!

Patch From TAP & DYE, Bandana and Booklets Pete’s Pirate Life

If you know me, then you know that I have returned to shooting film. I shot film from 1970 something until 2004. During that time I learned not only how to make images but to develop and print them. I’ve used everything from a small home lab to large commercial equipment. I love the smell of photo chemistry and working in a darkroom. Over the last year I have rediscovered my love of this way of shooting and the process that brings images to life. Don’t get me wrong, i’m not giving up digital.

Going forward I will be doing what I call hybrid shooting. I will always have both film and digital with me when i’m out and about. I’ve actually been shooting this way for a little over a year. This was a tough decision for my online presence. The digital algorithm isn’t kind to people that mix things up. It likes a proper niche. Well i’ve never fit into any specific niche, so why try now!

I’m also not going to limit myself as to genre of photography, street, portraits, landscapes etc…. I will shoot where my whim takes me. I will be sharing some, of all of these types of photography, on both film and digital. The idea is to enjoy myself and share this experience with you, the reader or viewer, depending on the platform you decide to follow, as I have several. This blog will continue and in addition i’m going to start creating content for my YouTube channel. It’s been dormant for almost a year. I will also continue to share my black and white work on my Instagram. I may add a color account as well but that is TBD.

So if you’ve been enjoying this blog and want to know more about my process, why I shoot and what i’m shooting with, then stick around. So much more to come!

Until Tomorrow,

John

Where Are Your Memories?

Sonoma Balloon Classic, 2014

I have made tens of thousands of images over my lifetime. Prior to 2004 I shot primarily on film. I have these images, in shoe boxes, binders full of negatives and even a couple of personal photo books. My wife has amazing scrapbooks that she creates, saving the memories of our life together as well as her past. We can enjoy these physical representations of our memories. I also have many hard drives that contain my work from 2004 on. The majority of these images are only available on these drives. I would have to search through them to find images that have meaning for me. I have created a method of catologuing but it would still take some effort to find something specific. Today I was looking at an old drive from 2014 and came across these images of the Sonoma Balloon Classic. My point being, where are your images? What are you doing with them? What will happen to them over the years?

Sonoma Balloon Classic, 2014

The digital age has allowed us to collect so much information. The number of images you capture is only regulated by the size of the storage device you are using. When I photograph an event I can come away with 100’s of images. How many of us go through those images? How many of us edit them and then present them in some form, either printed or online? Chances are you use one or two images, post them to your social media and move on with your life. For many os us social media has become the catalog of images from our life. The other day I was looking for an image to share and the only place I could find it was on the timeline of one of my accounts.

Sonoma Balloon Classic, 2014

The above images were taken in 2014. I was looking through some old hard drives and saw the folder labeled “Sonoma Balloon Classic”. I had actually forgotten about these images. I woke up crazy early to capture what they called dawn patrol. Balloons were launching, prior to sunrise, for obvious reasons. If it weren’t for this blog I don’t think I would have ever looked at these images. They would have been left for my kids to find, after I am gone. I know this because after my Mom passed we ended up with thousands of images, in drawers, at her home. I still want to go through them to relive her memories and have them for my kids so that they can learn more about her life and my youth.

So the question you have to ask yourself, is it worth the time and effort to do something with your images/memories? Are you going to print them? Are you going to create an online archive? Do you want to create scrapbooks or photo books? Or do you want to create a blog and share them daily with anyone that wants to see them?

Until Tomorrow,

John

Happy Birthday Georgia O'Keeffe!

Black Cross, New Mexico. Georgia O'Keeffe

Today is Georgia O’Keeffe’s birthday. This painting and O’Keeffe have had a more profound impact on me personally than any other artist or work of art. I grew up in Chicago. The Art Institute was a regular part of my life, starting at a very young age. My Aunt would take me there and I would immediately find this painting. There is other art, that I love there, but this one has always been my favorite. Later in life I learned more about her relationship with Alfred Steiglitz as well as Ansel Adams. I also learned more recently that she was also an avid photographer.

Art is subjective. We each can stand in front of a work of art and have very different reactions. I won’t go into too much depth but this image has a symbolic meaning for me, part religious as well as touching the explorer in me. The sunset in the distance, the never-ending hills that beg to be explored. There is so much to discover within this painting. Every time I stand in front of it I see something different, a texture, hint of color, wisps of clouds, the definition of the nails or pegs that hold the cross together. I imagine, would I be warm or cold if I were standing by this cross? What would it smell like? What would the breeze feel like? My imagination runs wild.

El Santuario de Chimayo

Last year I traveled to Santa Fe, one of O’Keeffe’s homes and home to her museum. I wandered, learning more about her with every painting. There is a section that displays items from her home and shares more about how she lived. I began to wonder what it would have been like to be around her as she created. What it would be like to have a conversation with her. In my own way I continue to do that by enjoying her work. Soaking up everything that I can, whether it be her photography, art or written words. I celebrate the day she was born because, without it, her impact on the world and myself in perticular would be a void I can’t imagine.

So Happy, Happy, Georgia! Thank you for everything that you have left myself, and the world, to enjoy!

Until Tomorrow,

John

The Mountains Are Calling!

“As long as I live, I'll hear waterfalls and birds and winds sing. I'll interpret the rocks, learn the language of flood, storm, and the avalanche. I'll acquaint myself with the glaciers and wild gardens, and get as near the heart of the world as I can".
― John Muir

It wasn’t until my 20’s that I discovered the wilderness. I was lucky enough to have a college roommate that asked me along on a multi day backpacking trip into Yosemite. Little did I know that I would fall in love with the mountains.

It would be one of many trips that I would take with the men above. I discovered who I was during these trips. I pushed myself harder than I thought possible.

The quote at the beginning of this post resonated with me. During these trips I learned to listen to nature in a way I had never done before. The sound of the wind, the waterfall, birds in the distance. I could smell the sun hitting the trees at first light. When i’m in the mountains, I feel closer to whatever it is that makes all this possible. The world we live on is alive. It talks to us constantly. You just have to listen!

Until Tomorrow,

John

We All Have a Camera With Us, All the Time!

It’s obvious I love photography and that I have many cameras. Whenever I go somewhere that isn’t work, I take one of those cameras with me, always! You may not be a photographer or have anything but a mobile phone. Chances are pretty good that that phone has an amazing camera. Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, you have the ability to capture the moment. I challenge you to do just that. We live each day, hours, minutes, seconds, gone after we experience them. They will only live on in our mind and I don’t know about you but my mind can’t remember what I had for lunch yesterday, let alone the wonderful things that happen around me constantly. This is what my cameras are for. So that I can look back, so others can look back, on the things that happened before. The magical moments, the amazing people that may be gone some day. Sights and memories and stories can be captured by that device in your pocket. So I beg you, capture those seconds, minutes, hours that fly by! Because, if you don’t, they will be gone forever!

Until Tomorrow,

John

I'mpossible!

Read that title again! We are all faced with limits in life. Some we create in our head and others are real and can slow us down or even stop us in our tracks. I have dealt with this issue directly with my creative work. The idea that i’m possible, that I am only limited by my own imagination and actions. Or is it impossible? Are there brick walls in my way, stopping me from being creative?

I know that I am my worst enemy when it comes to being creative. So much going on in my head, will people like it, is it worth it, what excuse can I find to avoid it. Distractions everywhere! It all boils down to how important is this to me? Do I love it? Does it bring me joy or satisfaction? Since you are reading this, the answer is obvious. I took the time to sit down and write this. I took the time to find the right image to express how i’m feeling right now as I type these words. Reggie overcame so many obstacles to be in the moment above. His lifelong love of his craft expressed in this image. We are all capable of amazing things. The hardest part is realizing that thing. Working hard to be even better at it and then share it with the world. Yes there are roadblocks, issues, challenges but the key is to find the detour, the workaround and to overcome. The idea you have, or potential outcome you imagine, may change over time, it may look different than you imagined. When we realize what’s possible it makes all that work worth while. Even if you never reach the end goal, the journey can be just as important.

So i’m enjoying the journey. I keep creating work. I walk the world with my camera, capturing moments, places, people. I’m still not sure what the end result will be, I just know it is what I love and i’m enjoying the journey, finding what’s possible for me!

Until Tomorrow,

John

Inspired by Ansel Adams!

“No man has the right to dictate what other men should perceive, create or produce, but all should be encouraged to reveal themselves, their perceptions and emotions, and to build confidence in the creative spirit.”
― Ansel Adams

I have always been inspired by Ansel Adams. His images sing to me. Amazing rock faces, beautiful landscapes, black and white images that capture the world. I can’t even count how many times i’ve visited Yosemite. The first trip was back in the 70’s and so many since. I’ve traveled the back country, the east and west sides of the park and made thousands of images during that time. The one above is one of my favorites. This image was taken in 2015 after a storm cleared the valley. The lighting was perfect, a few clouds in the sky. When I got home and loaded it into my editing software, I fell in love with it immediately. Over the years I have revisited it and tweaked it even more as I gain new perspective and abilities with the tools available to me.

Some would say that I am just copying the work that has already been made, duplicating what already exists. While I am inspired by images of the past, I believe that we all have a unique perspective, our own way of seeing and interpreting the things we experience. My images are my my own, taken by me, looking through the lens, choosing when to click the shutter. If you travel the world with the idea that everything has already been done then why bother? Well this is my experience, my passion, my art. I may travel in the footsteps of others but I make new footprints. I make my own path and then share it with the world.

So thank you Ansel! Thank you for showing me the way, for inspiring many of my images. You shaped an entire genre of photography that will impact generations to come. I can only dream that some day, one of my images will continue on, beyond my time here, and will be the inspiration for even one person, one image, made because of something I created.

Until Tomorrow,

John

One Step at a Time!

For the last five weeks i’ve been taking it one step at a time. It was that long ago that I had my hip replaced. I won’t go into the boring details but it was caused by a defect that I was born with. Pain had been a part of my every day. The majority of the pain is gone and with some work i’m hoping to be pain free soon. Whenever you are recovering it feels never-ending. I thought I would be further along after five weeks. What i’m hearing is that I'm actually ahead of the game. No longer using a walker or cane, I am able to walk somewhat normally again. I know that it will be months before I am 100% and that is ok. It’s ok because it’s 100%. I’ve been living at 50% for so long, I don’t even know what that may feel like, but i’m excited to find out.

I wanted to capture an image that shows the progress I am making. Movement, one foot in front of the other. What this image also represents to me is the challenge, hard work and struggle that I have worked through. The last five weeks are a blur. The one thing i’ve been focusing on is putting one foot in front of the other. I will continue to do just that, not only physically but mentally. Moving on the next task and making plans for the ones after that.

One Step at a Time!

Until Tomorrow,

John

My Muse!

Muse

muse1

/myo͞oz/

noun

1. 1.

   (in Greek and Roman mythology) each of nine goddesses, the daughters of Zeus and Mnemosyne, who preside over the arts and sciences.

   Similar:

   inspiration

   creative influence

   stimulus

   stimulation

   afflatus

2. 2.

   a person or personified force who is the source of inspiration for a creative artist.

The model in the image above, known as Devi, @googlymonstor on Instagram, is the closest I have come to having a Muse. She is definitely a personified force! I have been working with this amazing creative for many years. Her style, mastery of craft, confidence and nature cannot be matched. She has taught me so much over the years. With each photo shoot I learn something new, not just mechanics like lighting, composition, framing and such but who I am in the situation. She puts me at ease, helps me achieve the idea in my mind. Nothing else has impacted my photography more. If you are interested you can see more of my work with this amazing human here! I have been lucky enough to have found my Muse. I look back on an amazing collection of work that I will cherish always and I look forward to the possibility of creating even more in the future!

Until Tomorrow,

John

In Search of the Perfect Image

I have been wandering the world with my camera for over 40 years. You would think that within that timespan that I would have found the perfect image. What do I mean by the perfect image? When all the stars align, composition, exposure, capturing time and place and after the edit feeling the emotion that I felt when I made the image. Truth be told, I am still looking for that image. Yes I love some of the images I have made. I will cherish them forever but they are not what I consider the perfect image. In actuality I probably and hopefully will never achieve that goal.

The reason I will, hopefully, never achieve that goal is, after that, nothing else will compare. For me it is more about the journey. Learning from the imperfections of each image I make. Moving on to the next shoot knowing more than the last. The never-ending learning process. I even return to the same location over and over to see what I can do that is new, different or better than the time before. For me this is what photogaphy is about, the journey! Wanting to take my camera everywhere because I don’t know what might be around the next corner. The idea that I might learn something new with each image I make. For me this is a metaphor for life. Throughout my life I have faced many challenges and highlights, my first backpacking trip, earning my college degree, cycling from San Francisco to Los Angeles, marriage and the birth of my sons and so much more. Whatever the challenge or accomplishment, we strive for more, until there are no more challenges to be had. I know for me, when there are no more challenges, it will truly be the end. So I continue, with my camera, looking for the next challenge, seeking that perfect image!

Until Tomorrow,

John

What Is Art?

Definition:

art1

/ärt/

noun

1. 1.

   the expression or application of human creative skill and imagination, typically in a visual form such as painting or sculpture, producing works to be appreciated primarily for their beauty or emotional power.

   "the art of the Renaissance"

   2.

   the various branches of creative activity, such as painting, music, literature, and dance.

   "the visual arts"

As I get older I realize that anything can be art, but I do believe you need three things for something to be considered art. First you need the creative, the person that created the art. Second, you need someone impacted by the art and lastly, the art itself. It’s that simple. I don’t believe that there needs to be an arbiter of whether it is art or not or if society at large needs to be involved at all.

A person doesn’t need to identify as an artist to create art. We all, as children, drew, painted or made crafts of some sort. We all have this inside of us. It is the choice, as we get older, to continue to create art or explore our artistic interests. I don’t believe you need a formal education or background to be considered an artist. Anyone and everyone can create art. It is all about the choice.

We don’t think about it enough but art is absolutely everywhere. The music we listen to, the billboards or posters we see, photographs and videos online, we are bombarded with art every moment of every day. Whether you consider it art is up to you. It is subjective. You get to make that choice. When you look at the definition above “..to be appreciated primarily for their beauty or emotional power.” This is the impact on you, the receiver. Have you ever felt goosebumps listening to a particular song? Has an image ever brought you to tears? Have you stood in a gallery looking at painting or sculpture for more than a few minutes because you just couldn’t walk away? This is the importance of art in all our lives. I enjoy the reflection of an emotion brought on by sound or sight. When you think about this, the receiver could be anyone, from a loved one cherishing a childs creation to the person at the Louvre gazing at the Mona Lisa. Either is just as important when defining whether something is art, as it is in that persons heart and mind as to how it is perceived.

When it comes to the art itself, it also can be absolutely anything that has been ctreated by anyone. A building, music, photography, a painting or even a piece of wood carved by hand. It can all be art. As I stated earlier, art is everywhere. It is whether we choose to see it or not that makes it art for us.

This brings me to the original question. What is art? You get to decide. It is a very personal thing. The next time you are at a gallery or wandering a new city with a group of people, pay attention to where people linger. Notice what they are looking at and ask how it is impacting them. Each person will have a different perspective or answer. Ask people about the music they listen to and ask if there is a reason. The clothes people choose, the people they follow online, it may be art for them. We each have our own perspective based on the sum total of our lives and experiences, each being unique. It is this uniqueness that can shape perception of art. We all have our definition and for me that is the definition of what is art!

Until Tomorrow,

John

Nostalgia

Over the last few years i’ve noticed a trend. I’m not sure if it spawned from the isolation of the COVID lockdowns or if it would have happened regardless. That trend is the seeking of nostalgia. What do I mean by this? Everything from baking bread, the resurgence of vinyl records and record players and most importantly, for me, film photography. Reaching into the past to find pastimes that have meaning for us. Following a recipe from scratch to done, learning how to work a turntable and place the needle on the record to create that unmistakable sound. Picking up a camera that has a winder, a physical shutter, loading 35mm film and waiting, sometimes a week, for the images.

All these things take time and effort and have a learning curve. They are also nostalgic, taking us back to a different time and place. A time when some of us were kids or your parents were kids.

nos·tal·gia

/nəˈstaljə/

noun

1. a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.

I remember the first time I picked up a camera. It wasn’t what you would call a traditional camera. My 3rd grade teacher had us create a pinhole camera. We used the round Quaker Oatmeal box as it was light tight. We poked a tiny hole in it and created a slider to cover it. We mounted tin foil, inside the box, to reflect the light to the bottom of the box. In the dark we placed an undeveloped piece of photographic paper on the bottom of the box. We then sealed it. All we had to do was point it at something, keep it still, and slide the pinhole open. This exposed the paper to light. We then developed, using chemistry, the paper. I remember my awe at seeing the image appear on the paper. from a blank sheet to a photograph. Not only did I create the image, I created the camera. I was hooked for life.

Imagine my joy when I discovered that this medium was making a comeback. I dusted off my old cameras as well as my knowledge of the process. I dove in with both feet, finding creators online, magazines, YouTube chanels, places to develop my film and so much more. I had forgotten how much I loved the process of film photography. I love having a mechanical camera in my hands. I also love waiting for my images to return from the lab. It takes me back to a time that was filled with joy and discovery.

While I still shoot digital, I have rediscovered an old love in film photography. I am so excited that a new generation is rediscovering this part of photographic history. The images from yesteryear, prior to the late 90’s were all made on film or other, non digital, process. To understand that process helps us better understand the people that made those images.

So I will continue to soak up the nostalgia of my childhood, 20’s and 30’s and if you want I can share it with you as well.

Until Tomorrow!

John

The Beginning of Something Wonderful!

I’ve always loved writing. It is a very cathartic exercise. Putting down thoughts where you can see them. It always came naturally to me, that is when it was something I wanted to write about. I want to take that love further and make it something daily. I believe when you write, you are practicing several things. Cohesive thought being the first. Creating a cohesive thought takes energy and effort. Anyone can put words on paper or a screen, it’s when they make sense and convey a message that make it interesting. The second being expressing who you are. Everyone has a unique experience to share. Every perspective shaped by different events, people, places and even their inherent nature. The third as a chronicle, something to look back at or for others to remember you by. So much isn’t shared and passed on. So many things we want to say, but don’t.

I hope to accomplish the above by sharing my thoughts daily. Through this blog I will try to convey how my life experiences impact my art/photoraphy. Some days may include an image or series of images. Some days just a thought. No matter what I share, know that it is me, the true me. We all have something to share and I don’t want to look back and say what if, why didn’t I?

So I will finish this blog with an image. An image I took in Bodie, CA. I keep going back to this image. I made it my wallpaper for my display so that I can see it every day. It sings to me because it represents a time and place that brought me joy. I can relive this feeling every time I see this image. There are several elements to this image that I love. It’s black and white, no color to distract me from what is in the image. It was shot on film. I shot film for close to 30 years. The last being the location. I lived in Mammoth Lakes for several years. Bodie is approximately an hour north of Mammoth. The textures of the wood, the metal roof and the telephone pole all remind me of my time in that part of the world. This image may not be your favorite but know that with perspective you can undersand just how much it means to me. Art is subjective. Each individual has to determine if something is art for them. So what is art for you?

Bodie, CA Leica M6, TriX

Until Tomorrow!

John

Challenges

The last few weeks have been tough. For many years i’ve been putting off replacing my hip. Born with a defect, my hip had deteriorated to the point where the pain was intolerable. This is my second replacement, the first was almost 8 years ago. When you are recovering from something like this you always feel like it’s never ending. You have a hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I have progressed from needing help to get out of bed to using a walker and now a cane to move about. I know that i’m probably a week away from not having to use the cane and being totally self sufficient. But my mind plays tricks on me. There is always that nagging thought, what if it doesn’t get better? What if these limitations are permanent?

With some free time on my hands, and wanting a distraction, I started listening to podcasts. I came across the Martin Bailey Photography Podcast. He interviewed David duChemin. David is a “Photographer, Author, Creative Instigator” (Website). In the interview David discusses his decision to have his leg amputated. He talks about his recovery and challenges but most of all the positive impact on his photography. The issues he was dealing with was severely limiting his ability to enjoy, and take advantage of, his craft. This hit home. I do admit that what i’m dealing with isn’t at that level, but I understand his struggle. My photography has suffered over the last several years. The distances I could walk, the amount of gear I could carry, all limited by the pain I was feeling. I rely so much on my physical abilities for my passion.

The most important thing I took away from this interview was how positive David is. Moving forward from his decision can’t be easy. You could hear the strength in his words and voice. Talking about the fact that he’s not quite there yet but that he is committed to the process of getting there. It has motivated me to be more positive, to believe in my progress and know that there will be a positive outcome to my decision. I will be back on the trail, with my gear, making images soon!

Link Below!

Martin Bailey Photography Podcast

What A Year It's Been!

Every year I look back to see what i've accomplished.  Looking back at this year there was much sadness as well as much success.  My hope is that I will continue to advance and improve my craft each and every year and looking back helps me reach that goal.  When I look back at 2017 I see that my photography has improved and that I put myself in situations that were out of my comfort zone, which is a good thing.  No matter what the task, you need to push  your limits to learn.  We all learn to crawl, walk and ultimately run.  The path is full of bumps and bruises along the way and my photography is no different.  

My year began with a model shoot with Devi.  She is a very experienced model and made my work easy to accomplish.  This was my second shoot with her and my fifth model shoot overall.  People ask what I hope to accomplish by paying to have models pose for me.  First, it allows me to try things that I wouldn't normally be able to try.  Second, I was  able to pick the poses and take my time playing with the lighting.  I didn't feel rushed or beholden to anyone else.  I am my own client.  Personal dissapointment and being out some $ is the only downside.  

Devi, January 2017. Fuji XT1, 56mm f1.2 Lens, off camera flash in a soft-box with a black backdrop.

My son actually helped me with this image, unbeknownst to him.  I wanted to practice with the off camera flash system I was going to use and he helped out by being my subject.

My Son.  January 2017, Fuji XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, off camera flash in a soft-box with a black backdrop.  

I then headed off to the Mendocino coast to Fort Bragg and the city of Mendocino.  This turned into an epic six and a half hour trip that should have taken me a couple of hours.  A nasty storm arrived just as I was starting my journey.  I found this grove of trees and they screamed to be photographed.

Fort Bragg, CA.  Fuji XT1, 18-55 lens.  

Your probably saying to yourself, why all black and white?  I've always loved the look of black and white and when it comes to my personal work this probably won't change any time soon.  My next adventure was a trip to a local park.  Taylor Mountain Regional Park has broad sweeping views of Sonoma County and I found a spot that sang to me.

Taylor Mountain Regional Park, Santa Rosa, CA.

Throughout the year I was lucky enough to have worked with some amazing people, providing them with portraits.

The middle of the year hit me like a brick.  My Father passed the end of July.  I had photographed his 80th birthday the year before and had one shot that I absolutely love.  I took that image and wrote a a blog post.  It was therapy for me.  Through this article I was able to process some of my feelings as well as some self reflection.  Petapixel picked up the article and published it on their home page.  This was a major accomplishment for me coming from one of the worst moments of my life.  The original post can be read by clicking the image below.

My Dad on his 80th Birthday!  

I then had a session with Diandra Godiva.  This was a fun shoot with a new model I discovered on Instagram.  The mechanics of photography take less thought for me than the content of the image.  I have been struggling to make what I consider to be amazing images.  As an artist I am never happy with my work and always looking at what I could have done different.  This shoot just worked.  It felt right to me.  I didn't struggle to find the image, they just seemed to happen.  Diandra was a pure joy to work with and I feel more confident than ever after our shoot.  Sure there are things that I would do differently but I have learned something.  Casey Neistat once said "Don't let perfection get in the way of good enough."  My whole life I have been using that as an excuse not to try.  Well I'm trying now and I will keep on trying because I have no other choice.  I am my photography and my photography is me and I will never apologize for that!

Diandra Godiva, Fuji XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, natural light.

I ended the year with a trip to Lake Tahoe.  The Fall colors in full effect.  It was a quick trip but one that I will always remember.  I shared it with a lifelong friend, sharing stories, the good, bad and the ugly.  We hiked to a place I thought I'd never see again and he photographed me there.

Desolation Wilderness, Eagle Lake.  iPhone Panorama.

This is an epic journey we are all on.  I am choosing to do this with mine.  This is my passion, third in line after only my Wife and children.  So I hope you enjoy it with me and that you have something in your life that brings you as much joy as making images does for me.  

Delolation Wilderness, Eagle Lake Trail.  Fuji X100T.

See you in 2018!

My Gear!

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To date I haven't detailed out the gear I use on a regular basis.  It has been almost three years since my switch from Nikon to Fuji and I have no regrets.  The Fuji gear has actually strengthened my photography in many ways.  So below I list out what i'm using and why.  At the end of this post I will also talk about what I intend to buy in the not so distant future.  

Cameras

Fuji XT1

So this is my primary camera.  16.3 megapixels, 8 frames per second continuous shooting, more knobs, dials and programmable buttons than any other camera I have ever used.  The programmable features of this camera allow me to customize how I interact with the camera.  This allows me to configure it for any style of shooting and save up to 7 different user preferences.  

To say I love this camera would be an understatement.  People are probably tired of hearing my comparison to the Nikon FE2, my primary camera for over 30 some odd years.  The XT1 is the closest, in form factor, to that camera than any other camera I have used.  It just fits my style of shooting.  I have shot everything from landscapes, portraits, models and so much more with this camera.  It has never disappointed me.  

Fuji X100T

This camera is my everyday carry.  I never leave home without it.  Very similar to the XT1, the same sensor, menu and user configurable buttons.  The big difference is the fixed 35mm equivalent f2 lens and the rangefinder style viewfinder.  I have added the LMX100T thumbrest and the Dispatch Wrist Strap.  This is a fun camera to carry around.  I love that I can play with the optical rangefinder when I want and switch to the EVF with a flip of a switch.  I grew up in the 70's and this feels like a retro camera.  People ask me if it's a film camera all the time, then I show the them the display screen.  

Nikon FE2

This camera might as well be family.  I've had this camera since 1984 and it has been by my side ever since.  I have shot thousands of rolls of film with this camera.  It is easy to use and a tank.  I've backpacked with it, shot in the rain and dropped it, I don't know how many times.  I had it refurbished two years ago and it just keeps plugging along.  On it is the original Nikkor 50mm f1.8 it came with.  I have added the black (not offered any more) leather Tap and Dye wrist strap.  The all manual controls are what I learned on, so the exposure triangle is more instinct now.  The in viewfinder light meter assists you with the exposure and is the only reason this camera needs a battery.  The battery lasts years.  Can you tell I love this camera?  

Lenses

Fuji 18-55 f2-4 R LM OIS

This is a kit lens but not a kit lens.  The quality of this lens is amazing.  The aperture on a variable kit lens is usually in the 3.5 to 5.6 range.  To have f2 available at the wide end is amazing.  The only drawback is that it isn't weather resistant.  I also use this lens for video work with a variable ND filter.  The OIS is effective and reduces camera shake when I do handheld video.  

Fuji 35mm f2 R WR

One of my favorite lenses of all time.  This is a fast focusing, bokeh creating monster.  It's very small, when It arrived I wasn't sure it would do the job.  The lens hood provided seems too little to make a difference but it does.  I was shocked at how fast the focus was.  I've done some street shooting as well as some landscape work with it.  The results are fantastic.  It is the equivalent of a 52mm lens on a full frame camera.  I call it my "Nifty 50".  Click here for one of my shoots using this lens exclusively.

Fuji 56mm f1.2 R

This lens isn't fast but the results are unbelievable.  This is a phenomenal portrait lens.  I use this lens for all of my portrait and model work.  The bokeh is unbelievable.  The way this lens handles light boggles my mind.  I've been able to pull off natural light work with ease.  It also creates an effect, when shooting toward the sun, that I love.  It is a substantial lens in weight and size.  Click here for my quick review.

So that's it.  I know, it's not much of a collection, but for what I shoot, it works.  If the need arises I can rent the lens I need as well as a backup body.  

Other

GoPro Hero and Session

I have both the original Hero and the base model Session.  I have done some time-lapse and some fun family action stuff.  So far I haven't had a professional need for these cameras.  I posted a YouTube video taken with the Session mounted to my car and handheld.  Received a decent amount of hits even though the quality of the video isn't that great.  The camera shake is considerable with these cameras when used with out a gimbal.  

DJI Spark

The Spark is nothing but pure fun.  It is the best drone for the money if you are interested in getting into the drone video business.  Yes it cost's close to $700 to get into it, which is much cheaper than the Mavic which costs close to $1400.  Check out my video here.

What's Next?

My philosophy on gear is different than some.  I don't need the latest and greatest in order to make beautiful images.  I believe lenses are the first thing you should think of when upgrading.  They hold their value and expand what you are capable of shooting more than any other type of gear.  My dream lenses are the Fuji 10-24 f4  for landscape work, Fuji 50-140 f2.8 for so many reasons and types of shoots and the Fuji XF14mm f2.8 for street and potejtially real estate photography.  There is a rumor of a new 8-16 f2.8 which would replace, for me, the 10-24 and the 14mm.  Check out the road map here!  I would also like to upgrade to the XT2 but time will tell, in other words, profits determine purchases.  

Disclaimer:  I am not a full time professional photographer.  I have worked in the photography industry, off and on, for over 20 years.  I do hope to get back to where I was in 2005 but it's been and going to be a long road.  If you want to watch my journey and chime in please follow me on Instagram or YouTube or listen to my podcast!  

Boudoir Shoot With the Amazing Diandra Godiva!

I have been a fan of Diandra Godiva for over a year.  I would describe her as a 50's style or vintage glamour model.  According to Diandra she grew up in Northern California and had an interest in dressing up and taking photos since a young age.  She prefers a vintage esthetic and lifestyle.  She sings Karaoke and performs burlesque for special events. I discovered her on Instagram and hoped some day i'd get the chance to work with her.  This last week I was able to do just that.  

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Fuju XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, natural light.

I have had nothing but positive experiences working with models and this shoot was no exception.  Diandra was amazing to work with.  Her carefree nature and love for her craft shows in every image.  I like to think I have a relaxed style of shooting.  I want the model as comfortable as possible, knowing that this demeanor fosters a return through the lens.  In other words, you get what you give.  For me this was one of the most fun photo shoots I've done.

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Fuju XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, natural light.

I love natural light.  There is something to be said for keeping it simple.  I am very comfortable with using off camera flash and have used it for many shoots.  When it comes to Boudoir shoots I prefer the look of natural light.  I shot with the Fuji XT1 and for this shoot I used the Fuji 56mm f1.2 R lens.  Shot mostly wide open, there is a slightly soft nature to these images that works for me.  

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Fuju XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, natural light.

Diandra takes me back to my youth, watching old Marilyn Monroe films like "Gentlemen Prefer Blondes" and "Some Like It Hot".  I am already working on plans for my next shoot with this amazing model.  I hope you enjoy these images as much as I did creating them.

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Fuju XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, natural light.

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Fuju XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, natural light.

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Fuju XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, natural light.

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Fuju XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, natural light.

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Fuju XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, natural light.

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Fuju XT1, 56mm f1.2 lens, natural light.

I had to throw in at least one black and white!

You can find Diandra on Instagram or Tumblr

The Importance of the Photograph

My father passed a month ago and today is his birthday.  I'm letting that sink in.  Death is never easy and for those that have lost a parent it has a certain significance.  The person that has been there your entire life is now gone.  There are things that I am now thinking about that hardly, if ever, crossed my mind.  The biggest being that I am mortal and I too will meet the same fate some day, and the other, related to photography, is the importance of the photograph.

I am camera shy.  This has been a fact most of my life.  I believe it is one of the major reasons I took up photography.  I am never in the picture because I am taking the picture.  As a husband and father of two amazing little boys I have to rethink that strategy.  With my fathers passing I realized just how important images of him were to me.  The above image was taken at his 80th birthday party.  It was a wonderfully happy occasion.  All of his children were present and were able to enjoy this moment.  I was lucky enough to be in the right place at the right time to make this image.  I now have it and will cherish it until I am gone.  It made me think, what do my children have to remember me by?  There are very few images of me.  My wedding and a few random images, my wife made me pose for, are all that I have.  I realized that I want something more for my boys and friends to remember me by.  I want images that reflect me and the things I love, so I now am embarking on a journey to do just that.  I am adding it to my list of personal projects.  

That brings up the question, what do I do with these images after I take them?  I could leave them on a hard drive in the hopes that my family will discover them before they are crushed in the nearest landfill or I could put them in a format that can be passed on for generations.  I am spoiled by the fact that my wife loves to scrapbook.  My goal is to give her printed images every year for inclusion in the books that she creates.  Does this feel a little narcissistic?  Yes!  But it is something that I'm willing to make happen for my family in the hopes that it helps them remember me and the fun that we had.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not going to set up photo shoots with me as the subject.  My goal is to be more present in the images when the moment strikes.  This may mean bothering the nearest passerby, or whomever happens to be in close proximity, to help.  The goal being to be in the images when they happen.  

In my opinion history is being deleted by the terabyte.  Hard drives are being smashed in landfills, with millions upon millions of images on them.  How many images are left on that little card you insert into your camera that never make it to your computer or the images from your phone that disappear because your phone crashed or you replaced it without backing up the images?  So my goal is to start printing my favorite, and best, images.  In addition to the images for the scrapbook, I will also begin creating Annuals.  By Annuals, I mean a collection of my work from the year, including my best images from each shoot to place in a photo book, marked with the year they were created and background info regarding the shoot.  I'll go into more depth in a future post., but you get the idea.  So when a situation arises, family is gathered, a significant event or just something that warms your heart happens, make the image happen and get in there, your family and friends will be glad you did.  

My Dad, 1944 or 45?  We believe my Grandmother took the image of him in Arizona, Spring Training, Chicago Cubs.  A memory for forever if we make it happen!

What's My Genre and Where Do I Fit In?

I've been a photographer for a very long time and I find it hard to find one type of photography to focus on.  Some people say in order to be successful as a photographer you need focus.  Do one type of photography and be the best at that.  Put that out to the world with a consistent style and you will make a name for yourself.  I get that, consistency is king.  When you look at an Instagram account that has more than 10k followers chances are good that the images presented have a theme.  The majority of successful photographers are known for what they shoot.  When you hear the name Pete Souza you think Obama, Anne Geddes you think babies, Ansel Adams, Yosemite and the list goes on and on. My question is, is that a requirement for success?  

I love landscapes.  I've been an outdoorsy type person from a very young age.  I've been drawn to Yosemite and the rest of the sierras all of my life.  I've lived in Mammoth Lakes and Lake Tahoe.  I also believe I have made some beautiful landscape images over the years.

Yosemite Valley shot from the tunnel view parking area.  This obligatory location for every Yosemite photographer.

Bodega Bay California.  This is a spot called Bodega Head and is one of my favorite sunset locations.

Found these trees along the Merced River in the Yosemite Valley.  

But there are other things I love to photograph as well, portrait photography being one.  There is a magic in the capture of someones essence.  A photograph of  a person is something, if done right, that can be treasured by future generations.  I believe it can be the best way to remember someone as the years and generations roll on.  I cherish the images that I have made of my two sons.  I have challenged myself to capture their true being, not just for me, but for them and their children and so on.  

I have also been able to create candid portraits that will be passed on for generations.

My fathers 80th birthday.

I have also tried my hand at model photography.  At first this was just a project to push the limits of my photographic abilities.  I wanted to practice my off camera flash skills as well as interacting with a subject in a different way.  I had never paid someone to be my subject but I have no regrets after seeing the results.  

In addition to the above I also love travel photography.  It is a dream to, some day, be able to travel the globe, gear in tow, and capture the essence of the places that I explore.  My latest adventure was to Vancouver BC.

So you tell me.  Where do I fit in?  Where should I focus my attention?  I love photography as a whole and can't imagine limiting myself to one genre.  I enjoy the constant challenges that different locations present.  I enjoy not knowing where my next adventure might come from.  I love working with people and capturing their being, their essence, their love for life.  I also love the outdoors and mountains and natures beauty.  So I'm torn.  For the time being I will continue on my path, shooting what arrives in front of my lens and hoping that I find a tribe or audience that appreciates me for what I am, a true lover of photography in all of its' forms.